Monday, December 25, 2006

Monday, 12.25.06

I don’t wanna go.

Okay, I gotta remember to bring the anti-vomit pills and iron supplement with me to the hospital.

Wait! Should I bring that red tub we bought when I had my surgery so I can have something to puke into, just in case?

I really don’t wanna do it.

Ooooo…. I can work on the photo journal while I’m in the hospital…… No! No! No! I shouldn’t bring too much stuff this time.

Can I not go tomorrow? The rest of the week is ruined.

Must remember to remind Bill to call Andrew about his apartment. Oh yeah! And make an appointment with Ms. Chang for viewing the 3-bedroom apartment later this week.

What else? What else?

I don’t wanna go tomorrow……..

Credit card bill! I gotta pay my credit card bill and cell phone bill.

I guess I can do that while I’m in the hospital.

I don’t wanna spend 5 days in the hospital…..

They’re gonna push a needle into my catheter.

I don’t want to go through that again.

Will I puke? How bad will it be if I puke?

Blood test – I’m gonna have a bruise on my arm….. again!

The smell of hospital….. I hope I don’t get a roommate who just had surgery.

I don’t wanna go to the hospital to do chemo tomorrow!

1 comment:

  1. I almost feel the panic in my throat as you describe what you're feeling. It won't be as bad as you're thinking. Your dread is getting in the way.
    You must do it....and you know it...for your own sake and for Bill.
    Best wishes....and remember the barf basin, if you forget use theirs, if they forget find them and remind em....sorta like (I know you would be too weak but it's fun to think about anyway) I'll find you and "I can make you sorry!"
    OK, kidding out of the way.
    We are pulling for you and wish you NO NAUSEA OR BARFING!
    Hang in.

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